By Kiara Windrider

August 11, 2002



There are times when I feel immensely heavy these days.  My 3-D self runs around frantically looking for clarity, looking for a bigger container so I can find my balance once again.  There are times when I feel so weary with the world that I can't feel my heart anymore. Our external political realities numb my soul.  Not content with the escalating wars on our own species, we are now declaring a war of extermination on the cetaceans. After overwhelming evidence from environmentalists and marine biologists pointing to the widespread dangers of Low Frequency Active Sonar, the National Marine Fisheries Department chose recently to capitulate to the US Navy's demands for its use, putting marine life in 90% of the world's oceans at grave risk.  Whales, manatees, giant squids, and dolphins around the world are beaching themselves, or showing increasing signs of disorientation and stress.

I share this because I know many of you have shared similar feelings of helplessness and despair.  Sometimes the forces of ignorance seem just too strong.  

And yet, I keep asking myself, what is the truth?  Behind the veils and illusions of the 3-D world, what is really going on?  Is there hope for our planet? Is there a reason to keep going? Is there truly justice in the world? How can Mother Earth just sit there and take it? Why isn't the Galactic Federation or the Ascended Masters doing something? The questions are many.  The answers seem to be few.

I realize ultimately that the answers I give myself are directly related to the consciousness I choose to hold.  In my own experience I have found that a dark night always precedes a major spiritual initiation.  I feel that this is so now for us as a collective.  I feel we are going through a "dark night of the planetary soul" in preparation for a major "planetary initiation". As our deepest fears and feelings emerge to the surface, we go through an alchemical lifting up of all our shadowed places.  

We let go of all our identities, all our attachments to rightness and wrongness, all our fears of extinction or death.  We let go of all aspects of separation, all thoughts of an "enemy".  We surrender even our ability to surrender anymore. We become empty.

In our shift from third-dimensional to fifth-dimensional realities, there is no other way other than to go through this emptying out.  If we understand why it is we are making the journey, perhaps it will make the journey easier.  But we cannot avoid the fears, the anguish, the heaviness, the grief.  If these conditions exist at all within our psyches, they will show up, they must show up.  The dark night will continue until in perfect timing we experience a spark of illumination directly from our souls, and understand that everything has forever and always been absolutely perfect.


This is what being in fifth-dimension is about.  There is no sense of separation here, and therefore no fear. There is no enemy here, and therefore no pain, suffering, or death.  In my own experiences of swimming with dolphins and whales, I have come to realize that they are inter-dimensional beings.  They already dwell in the fifth-dimension.  The pain and anguish we feel on their behalf is our pain, our anguish, not theirs.  Death isn't an issue with them. They are empty, and therefore open to worlds of possibility beyond the 3-D realms we find ourselves trapped within.  As I tune into their consciousness I realize that they are assisting all of Mother Earth towards shifting into a higher dimensional reality.  

This reality already exists in a dimension parallel to ours, yet we only see it when we have emptied out our separation consciousness.  Soon it will become the only reality we inhabit.

I am not suggesting that we sit back and do nothing in the face of these threats to our relatives in the oceans.  Please write your letters to congress; please pray your prayers. Yet, as we engage in our desires and activities to save them, let us not come from a place of opposition and fear.  We are engaged in a much bigger job than this. We are moving through a dark collective tunnel that no longer has evolutionary meaning.  We are stepping out into a birthplace of light such as we have never yet seen. Sleeping in its dark cocoon, the caterpillar is dreaming great dreams of becoming a butterfly!



Somehow, in the writing of this, I seem to have reconnected with a deeper place of truth.  I am empty again, and an unreasoning joy begins to fill my heart.  My vibrational frequency is stronger.  The veils are pulling back. I see more clearly now.